Ever have days you feel defeated? I mean, of course you do. I just don’t know how to open this convo haha Gaaaahhhhhhhd this is the kind of stuff that I just feel sick to my stomach about sharing. But then after I get myself out of the funk I know that if I share it and I can help ONE person turn their day, week, life around then it was worth this moment of uncomfortable nausea I feel as I type.
I read something a friend wrote the other day and she said “people are strange…they are constantly outraged by the minuscule but when it comes to big matters, like wasting their entire life, they hardly seem to notice”
And don’t get me wrong!! this is not a woe is me, feel bad for Tawnya post!! I am sooooo freaking lucky and blessed. I have ZERO reason to stress, worry, be consumed by the negative, nothing. BUT, I’m human. We have a baseline of emotion and daily (mostly by choice) we are either way high, close to, or way low of that baseline. You don’t want to live flat line and you don’t want to live in the extreme.
So yesterday I hit a few roadblocks in my business, I tried some new ideas that failed, I waited all day for something that finally came then I had to leave 20 minutes after it got there, I had more to do in the amount of time I had to do them, I didn’t clean the house which means I woke up to a mess today, and then to top it all off this morning I took progress photos that look WORSE than my week 5 progress/results….. (insert ughs and eye rolls).
My first thought was that as soon as I got the kids off to school I was just going to skip everything I had planned for today and curl up on the couch and turn on a movie. But I recognized that voice from years ago. It was a girl that used to be afraid to try anything or DO ANYTHING. I never tried out for sports because I was too nervous that I would fail and not be accepted on to the team. I never went out for drama class in case I froze and wasn’t given a part. I never finished any class I started in college because I felt like it didn’t make a difference. I didn’t try to make new friends because of how hurt I’d been over and over by old ones. I never asked for help because I felt like I wasn’t worth the burden to someone else.
It’s taken me 3 years to grow into someone I only used to dream of being. It’s taken me all this time to realize that it’s not immediate gratification that fulfills you. It’s not all the bright shiny objects that make your heart feel happy. It’s not a goal reached but the mountain you climbed that truly completes you. Good and bad days are all in how you perceive them and if I were to try I could turn every one of those negatives about yesterday and today into a positive. Which is exactly what I did. I got out a notepad and wrote down everything that was weighing me down between yesterday and today and came up with this…
I learned 3 new things I can teach other leaders on my team about our business, I can try and improve on the ideas I tried to execute that didn’t work so that I’m better next time, I sat and laughed with friends and business partners all over the country from my phone while I waited for the sun to come out then had a 20 minute peaceful stretch on an empty beach listening to the ocean, I checked 8 things off my list yesterday that are done and taken care of, my house is trashed today but by deciding to take action instead of curl up on the couch I can breeze through and get it put back together, and my progress photos that look WORSE than my week 5 progress/results will be a great way to share with potential coaches and clients as well as my #shinebrighttribe that we all face plant. It’s life. There is no ONE result or set of progress photos that determine my worth or the fact that I am a happy healthy momma that gets to stay home in my yoga pants, drink coffee, workout at home, go to the beach, not miss any school or sporting event, travel, be surrounded by amazing humans, share my life and times with all of you, and be financially independent.. No boss, no time clock, no one telling me where or when to be.
After I made the list I felt so grateful for taking the time to assess what is really important. Choosing to see that in every mess we have the opportunity to share a message makes me feel like now I can climb that mountain. So I’m going to put Rhianna on, drink my pre-workout, breeze through this house like Mary Poppins, kill 22 minutes with Tony & a handful of marines in the garage, and wear a smile bigger than I’ve had in 2 days because of the healthy mindset and growth that the last 3 years as a Beachbody coach has brought me. When I think of all the ways and changes it’s not always personal development that comes to mind first but it’s definitely the foundation of my entire being and without that I would have quit this business 10 times over by now and would be STUCK wasting my life away wishing for, wanting more, and not truly enjoying anything life set in front of me.
So next time you feel defeated, ashamed, or just shitty… go turn the list around to see how you can put that list in a new light. If you need recommendations on books I’ve read or things I watch on personal development and growth let me know! I’d love to share!!
And, if you aren’t asleep yet thank you so much for reading along 😉 this was a hard post to put together for me but if it resonated with you at all then you’ve made it 100% worth doing. ❤ Here’s how you can show that funk who’s boss: